As the beginning of this school year starts for my children, it brings the beginning of some big changes for me as well. I can't decide yet how I feel about these changes but nevertheless they are happening and there isn't really anything I can do about them. The first big change is that my youngest child begins full-day kindergarten. Wow! This is something that I have been looking forward to for a long time and yet now that it is actually here I want to hold back the clock. Things are going too fast. For the past 21 years I have had some small person in tow almost constantly. Finally I can have some peace and quiet and some alone time but then why did I have to fight back the tears as I left my little one with her class this morning? Why did I have a hard time getting past the lump in my throat? As much as I have been looking forward to this, it also signifies the end of a season, the passing of time and the growing older for everyone. I know I will adjust but I already miss my little shadow.
The second change seems impossible that it could be coming hand in hand with the first. Any day now I will become a grandma! Holy Cow, that sounds old! I'm okay with being a grandma, it just sounds .....well, you know...old. I'm excited to have a new little person join the family but again It will be another change that signifies the ending of one season and the passing of time. It seems I never really notice time passing as much until these kinds of changes are staring me in the face. And then suddenly I'm left wondering where the last 21 years have gone. I mean seriously, I remember things as if they were just yesterday and yet yesterday is not the same today.
But truly, while I look back and am saddened by how quickly all life's moments have passed (thus far), I do look forward to this new season of life....a new adventure to experience. So, Bring it On! Cause ready or not, here it comes!
